On the blog: when you don’t know what you need. (Full text thru link in bio.)
I lay in bed too tired to think, not knowing where to start — children, church, marriage, friends, my own soul? It had been a long time since I had talked to God about it all and I was at a loss at what to ask. The words came to mind as I struggled to pray: “Your Father knows what you need before you ask him.”
When you’re young and think you know what you need, you can only see it as redundant to speak to God about it. But then, you live longer. And as life’s complications and sorrows and hard lessons come, we begin to see that maybe we don’t know what’s best like we thought we did.
So what do you ask God for then? What happens when your feelings can’t be trusted? When your mind is unable to make sense of things to form a coherent request? When your foresight has failed and your problems outweigh your wisdom? When you’ve run out of solutions and suggestions to offer to God?
Where do you start when you don’t even know what you need?
Our Father, says our Elder Brother, knows what you need before you utter a word. Therefore, you are not heard because of your flowing eloquence, the strength of your passion, or the might of your wisdom. You are heard because you are known completely and loved deeply. You are known because through Christ, you belong to God. And you are invited to God’s throne room, not to offer him tidbits he doesn’t know, but to receive mercy and find grace to help you in time of need.
Thus beloved, we pray. And when we don’t even know what to ask? It’s okay.
My children don’t need to know much to get my help, only that they’re not doing so great and that Mom can do something about it. So it is that as we walk with Jesus we will come to times when we can only be sure of two things: One, our need is great and two, there is only one Person who can help. And as it turns out, in these moments, that may be all we really need to know.
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Him: Can I go run in the leaves.
Him: So I can jump in them and be happy!
“The great thing, if one can, is to stop regarding all the unpleasant things as interruptions of one’s ‘own’, or ‘real’ life. The truth is of course that what one calls the interruptions are precisely one’s real life – the life God is sending one day by day: what one calls one’s ‘real life’ is a phantom of one’s own imagination.” - C.S. Lewis
...I am hoping to grow in receiving the interruptions that seem to mark my days as God-ordained invitations.
A mistake, something I overlooked that I feel like I shouldn’t have—
He is helping me to put to death the perfectionism which suffocates grace.
Tasks taking longer than expected—
He is challenging my lifeless idol of productivity: Can you do what I do? Do you really have power? Can you give life?
A fussy baby on my hip, a hungry 3-year old by my side, as I stand in a how-did-it-get-so-messy-again-already home—
He is making me more like Christ, and giving me a chance to choose to believe these words even as I type them.
Cries of “MOOOOMMM” from the other room—
He is nudging me on, giving a chance to join him as he works in the lives of others. How often the interruptions come in the form of the precious little people living in my house who I profess to serve!
A boy wanting to jump in leaves and be happy—
He is beckoning me to stop and rest, to not miss his gifts, and to trust the One who gives good gifts I did not even know to want.
Many are the plans in the mind of a man—
He is building my life. Bringing it to me day by day, moment by moment, interruption by interruption. // Full text through link in bio.
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